Both Tuesday and Thursday I was on campus for around 13 hours. I'm already stressed out and tired. Thursday night we had mandatory student teacher round-up. We learned everything we needed to know about student teaching, the application process, and our state board exams. It was great information, but I felt even more anxious after the meeting. I have so many decisions and deadlines to meet!
The way that student teaching works is that you get to select your top two areas that you want your name sent to. There is no priority for grades, etc. There are around 500 student teachers EVERY semester, it is truly a lottery. You do not have to choose the district that you want to teach in, but it's always helpful. I was 100% certain of the district I wanted to teach in, so I was going to make this my priority one selection. The only problem is that there are "areas" not districts and the areas may or may not include more than 1 district. The district that I want is included with a district that I REALLY don't want. I could roll the dice and hope that I get the district I want, but there are no guarantees. I'm not a gambler, plus things rarely go my way. So now I have a big decision to make, one that could help or hinder my future...no pressure really. I've knocked around my choices with some friends and feel a little better. I have by next Friday to submit my application, so I better decide fast. Once you are selected you have to accept your district and grade level assigned (we have no choice) or start the entire process over next semester.
I'm becoming more nervous about not having a paycheck for the first time since I was 16, finding a teaching job mid-year. I'm both scared and nervous about quitting my job. I've been there almost 9 years. I've gotten married, had a kid, been divorced and had many highs and lows...it's my security blanket. I'm ready to detach myself but equally afraid of what's to come. I'm a planner, I hate the unknown. I really feel like I'm taking such a huge step. Keep your fingers crossed.
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My fingers are crossed! (For good measure, I will cross my eyes, too.)
Look at it this way: if you didn't take this big scary step, where would you be in 1 year? 5 years? 10 years? The same place you are now...boring. BAH isn't your dream career. The unknown may be scary, but really it's SO EXCITING. Even if you end up in a bad area at first, it is TEMPORARY. So what about no paycheck. I, too, had no paycheck for 11 mos of my career (bed rest/maternity leaves with the boys). It'll work out, especially with your parents' help. Again, it's temporary. You are opening a huge new door to your future. Don't tiptoe through hesitantly; run through with a smile!
Ditto what Joey said. Run through that door...and don't let it hit you on the ass on the way out:)
I am so sad you will be leaving BAH, but you and I know this is the direction you need to go. It is all going to work out in the end. Some children out there will be so lucky to have you as a teacher.
What a tough decision. I think things have to start going your way soon- you have had so many tough breaks. I am really excited that you are so close to your new career- I think you will be an awesome teacher and you will love your job. I think it will be even sweeter since you had to work so hard for it.
Kareen you are strong and determined and most of all you are a survivor. You will make it like you always have. We are all behind you.
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